The Homeopathic Proving of Aquae-Sulis

Themes

The following 'themes' came-up in this proving and I have listed them in this order
1.Water : Wet/Dry,Thirst,Bloated/Swellings, Night-Time Urinating
2.Clarity/Calm
3.Fuzzy/Angry
4.Energy
5.Pregnancy/Fertility/Sexuality

WATER


Prover 10
Day one
Lots of trouble with the house and a flooded garage-lots of phone calls-I can think of a better way to spend an evening but it did not really affect my mood.

Prover 5
Day 2
While in the bath an image came to me of water lilies. It is as if I sit upon a small lily pad with my boys… safe and secure. There are other lily pads a little way away across the pond and green stalks not only going down in the water but there is one leading from my pad to a larger, more comfortable, padded, safe lily pad. I feel that I am starting the journey edging slowly along that stalk to the other pad with my boys still safe on our little pad. I can call them if the going looks good. But I can also turn back to the safety of our lily pad… the life I have created for us is calm, warm and secure, a haven for us. But other lily pads could feel safe too, if not safer and more secure. I am the cowboy swimming a little ahead to test the water and the possibility of a more comfortable life sharing someone else’s lily pad.

Prover 3
Day 15
Feeling a little light headed + dizzy. Not a bad sensation just slightly away with the fairies-swimming with ideas.

Prover 11
Day 9
Dreams- still a lot, and detailed-holiday near beach: sudden solar eclipse (unpredicted)-yet I wasn’t ‘fazed’ by this. Day 15 I’d like to learn more about “the memory of water” and how Homeopathy might work. But analysis is not the answer!

Prover 2
Day 5
Lunchtime
Went of a walk and there was a stream my boyfriend and I crossed. The water was bubbling over stones and then got deeper and poured under the bridge. It was very beautiful. And the waters were gentle, warm and nurturing. The very gentle rippling felt energetically like the energy flow in my womb. Sort of still, peaceful and yet moving in a steady flow. I felt that river in my womb.
Day 7
Dream
And there was a tree, that before the 1900’s is where they used to get beer from. A woman was there in brown tunic-pagan england, she was laughing at us moderns thinking that beer didn’t exist before the turn of the century. (has vague “getting water from a well” connections.)
Day 9
EVENING
I talked things through with my boyfriend and I became calm and still. Then I went and had a shower. I felt as if I needed to get clean. I was in the shower and wanted to be in deeper water so I ran the bath and sat in it with the shower still going. I had a vision of being in a pool, a maiden, washing, with nature all around me; rocks and plants. It was really nice. Sometimes the shower was like a waterfall, and I sat with my head under it and sometimes falling like rain on the river I saw a few days ago. When I turned the shower off, I didn't like the stagnancy of the water and began moving and then the deep sadness that I felt, but had no visible channel to get to, started to rise up…… I do feel an overwhelming urge to be held and hold my boyfriend. I do feel much love for him, as I something has just shifted in me, moved, and I have plummeted 60,000 ft below sea level and stand between two pillars and I stand with my arms outstretched, and in every inch of my being is desire to love and be loved. Not scared anymore. I remember I cried in the bath -'where is the air to breathe' and also of something else that was wrong and appertaining to a basic need.
Day 11
If Mabel were to ask me how I was-I would say that there is stuff swimming in me. In time it will surface, rather like a dead body in the sea. First it sinks, then it rises. Rather like the phoenix who rises from the ashes.

Prover 4
Day 14
Morning
Another strange dream about picking P up from school but I couldn’t get through because of floods. I phoned my sister and he was with her, but my friend was following me around and I became stranded and trying to shake him off.
Daytime
Feeling quite content and in control of life. Seems like the storm has passed.
Day 20
Morning
Got up late + feeling really washed out.
Day 21
Difficult to get up although slept quite well. Feeling quite washed out.

Prover 9
Day 23
Travelling home today. Walked on the cliffs + gazed out to sea, very bracing, exhilarating with the wind and the sun.

Prover 6
Day 21
Woke up in the middle of the night from heavy rainfall and had difficulties to go back to sleep.

Wet/Dry



Prover 6
Day 1
General dryness of mucous membranes.
Day 3
Mucous membranes of nose are extremely dry.
Day 9
Slept through until 4.30- no dreams. Abundant nasal discharge-suddenly streaming out the nose. Breathing through nose caused burning of mucus membranes. Nose was either dripping like a tap-clear watery or when nose is blown-yellowish (sometimes)
Day 12
Still a lot of yellowish nasal discharge mainly from left nostril. Mucus membranes in nose and very dry.
Day 13
We went skiing today. I felt generally better because of the fresh air- my nose didn’t seem to stop running. I used a whole packet of tissues during the day it really irritated me!

Prover 10
Day 7
Runny nose.


Prover 7
Day 14
Woke up, mouth dry.

Thirst


Prover 10
Day 1
Taking a cup of water to bed–which I do often but not always.

Prover 6
Day 1
Thirsty for water.
Day 5
I must have been drinking litres of hot tea because that made me feel a bit better.

Prover 9
Day-1
Woke up about 4am for a drink of water.
Day 2
Woke 5.45am-slept on + off til 7am (not as thirsty)

Bloated/Swellings


Prover 10
Day 4
Bloated. Probably because dinner had a lot of cabbage and beans. Abdomen distended. Went to bed 10pm.
Day 5
Bloated feeling has gone.

Prover 7
Day 4
9pm Left foot feels swollen.
Day 12
8.30 pm – Both feet feel like there’s oedema. Left foot-toes itchy, hot, swollen. - Cold water over my feet eased the swelling/oedema.
Day 13
1.30pm – Slight oedema like feeling around top of toes and feet; slight itchiness on left foot.

Prover 11
Day 21
Rather overate- a bit bloated.

Night-time Urinating


Prover 6
Day 1
Again I must have had too much tea last night-woke up @ 2.45am to go to toilet.
Day 2
- got up @ 3.00 to go to toilet.
Day 3 Got up at 5.30 am to go to toilet.

Prover 10
Day 2
Woke in the night 2am but straight back to sleep after going to the toilet.
Day 3
Think I woke up-maybe for the loo-quite normal-back to sleep.
Day 4
Had a good night’s sleep although woke up for the toilet in the early hours.
Day 8
Night- up for toilet. Am I more restless in the night? It seems I have been up for the loo every night-that always happened, more than 50% but not 100% of nights.
Day 10
Woke up thinking I wanted toilet but managed not to go and got back to sleep.

Prover 9
Day 10
Awoke 5am –needing to go to the loo!

Prover 7
Day 8
Woke up at 3-4am to go to the toilet.

CLARITY/CALM



Prover 2
Day 6
Evening- Even more good news-to do with my spiritual work. I have been given a task to do…..I have been asking for this for a while, but am coming through to a clarity with it. I feel a lot of humbleness in the last few days which with the clarity of ‘emptiness’ enables me to reassess where I am and what steps I need to take next. It’s about being responsible for the path I walk. I know what I need to do next in my work, only I’m not sure why-where it leads to. Thing is to have faith and strength in the feeling of Christ in my heart.

Prover 4
Day 1
Also feel very calm. Given I drove 200 miles and had a quite difficult 4 hour meeting this morning is quite striking.
Day 2
Midday. Feel very alert and together today, but also quieter in manner than usual. I feel quite comfortable with myself but that could be because the sessions went well today.
Day 13
Evening
Again calm and quiet-felt good to be this way. Went to theatre with P-again-good to be out with my daughter.

Prover 1
Day 4
Slightly resentful of balance in relationship, however communication skills are very good at the moment so able to put across point of view in a clear and calm manner. Equilibrium restored to partnership.
Day 8
Usual array of chaos but quite calm.

Prover 6
Day 2
It’s difficult to say, but I thought I was somehow calmer- I got an email which usually would have made me very angry, but I answered normally. Also have my in-laws around is sometimes not easy, but I feel more relaxed.
Prover 3
Day 15
PM
My clarity of thought has, I think improved with the pills.

FUZZY ANGRY



Prover 5
Day 19
11pm- Just when I thought it was safe to go back in the water… joke! I do think the remedy did something in the last few days and I felt so crap I didn’t write it down! I felt exhausted all day Thursday and had symptoms of a cold and a cough. I was also really bad tempered, wanted to be left alone, and overwhelmed with all that I had to do. I haven’t been in that space for a long while so I wasn’t happy about it. Having sailed through the whole proving on a high, no different really from the high I was on before the proving, I had given up on the remedy taking affect. So yesterday morning I did a bad thing, and I am sorry. I took my constitutional remedy. I just couldn’t cope with feeling that crappy and ruining this weekend. And what made me convinced it was the remedy that made me feel crappy, was the fact that the symptoms went away!
Prover 3
Day 1
PM – P and I had another falling out + I ended up throwing a glass in the sink, on purpose + cut my hand in the process. I was fuming. Now I’m less angry-more sad + confused.
Day 2
AM Woke up very angry at P for not being kinder. Was woken 5 or 6 times in the night.
Day 4
Woke after another bad night with everyone waking me. Rather cross as P isn’t as helpful as I’d like in Am with children.
Day 6
So annoyed that P can’t be more like me + I suppose I can’t be more like him.
Day 8
Emotionally-flat one minute elated the next.

Prover 6
Day 1
I got quite irritated when I went into town and the traffic was so bad.
Day 13
I couldn’t quite tell why I was generally so irritated today. There were a lot of stones and ice (skiing) and I was often shouting and screaming. At one stage I started crying because I was so angry.

Prover 2
Day 9
Trying to stay happy-wham: A friend of mine has just found out her boyfriend slept with another woman on holiday and has dumped my friend -all on the phone on the day of his return before she'd even seen him-and she lives with him. Have been counselling her all day about honouring her circle of being, about integrity, about 'spiritual love' ~love based upon spiritual principles. And I wanted my boyfriend to come round and he said no. I'm angry. I'm sulky. I'm miserable and I don't care. And very interested as to what complex these emotions came from. Indulgence. Right relationship.
Gee, I am SO ANGRY.
Day 11
Am pretty good, though preoccupied on a subtle level. Notice anger. Notice that 2 people I know have had boyfriends who have recently slept with other women. Makes me angry, insensibly outraged. Actually just remembered my first boyfriend cheated on me but he doesn’t know that I know that.
Day 15
Am stressed and f******g ANGRY. Don’t want to write or anything. Wish the whole world would leave me ALONE. Would like to smash everything up. – Then I got to work and realised I was in no fit state to work, my entire body trembling cells 2 inches deep in skin. I couldn’t see straight or think straight. Shit man, this has been bad. MAD. + yesterday I was hitting my own head. + jumping away up the wall when I was touched and didn’t want to be. Hitting the sofa and then crying. Despicable behaviour- I feel disgraceful, truly.
3.15pm
I though of drawing my dark rage, red and black, because I don’t know what it’s about. I know without the rage-at the deepest part of my soul-it is dead, wounded-it, some part of me doesn’t understand life, doesn’t see the purpose in living. I don’t know why. I really don’t, but I suppose I’ll find out. I did sense a clock ticking in my womb as if it’s only a matter of time. Yes. Eyes sore. Fed up. F*****g Angry.
Day 17
MORNING
Feel wounded, borderline anger + tears. Holding it together-where is hope? Think it is after I have eaten I get angry-have noticed that pattern. Have also been staring into space a lot.

Prover 4
Day 6
Morning
Had a dreadful night. Hardly able to sleep and feeling soooo angry towards the school, so defensive of P (daughter)
Daytime
Very angry all day, not knowing what to do. Not angry with those around me, but generally with the school. I would like to take P away and protect her from the world.
Day 8
Morning
I can’t seem to shake off the mixture of anger, emotional upset and tiredness.
Day 12
I really feel out of it like a glass bubble-couldn’t focus enough, lack of clarity and a weight on my head, or rather inside it.

ENERGY



Prover 3
Day one
Mid PM -feeling ‘buzzy’, a little like I’ve taken mushrooms or something with a slightly funny/peculiar upper stomach sensation.

Prover 4
Day 1
Early evening.
I took the remedy at 9am while driving on the motorway……. early evening- I feel quite calm and in control of things + not as tired as usual. In fact I feel quite energised early evening. Felt really good this evening, haven’t felt this invigorated and energised for a long time.

Prover 11
Day 1
BIG PICTURE – Energy at work seems greater-more creative.

Prover 6
Day 1
Feel somehow more energised than usual.
12.30 Took RX (remedy)
Day 2
Got up early which didn’t seem too bad…..I’m not feeling tired at the moment which seems strange as I’d have expected it…
Day 7
Body feels weaker than mind

Prover 2
Day 1
Evening
So now I've remembered I've taken a remedy I notice how I can feel the pull of it kicking one thing out to make room for this one, or rather an integration process is occurring as my body accepts it in. And it’s causing a push/pull, as I try and make up my mind whether I'm to lie in bed ill or clean not the whole of Bath, but my room.

Prover 8
Day 6
Organised a meal this evening at my flat, very high today with lots of energy and dancing until the early hours.
Day 7
Feel happier like there’s a warm glow inside. More contented with myself and appearance, laughing outloud more especially at work as well as at home.
Day 8
Took 2nd dose today. Able to get up quite readily this morning. Brain seemed to kick in gear and woke up straight away. Still very bouncy at work. Thinking more about ideas of what I want to do for a career trying to look at the bigger picture. “Why am I here, where do I want to go”? Work for a charity, conservation or environment? Seems like a spark has ignited and beginning to fuel ideas.
Day 10
Got up with lots of energy wanting to clean or go to an exercise class.

Prover 1
Day 1
Slightly indecisive, but more together as the day wore on. Slightly bubbly/excitable/hysterical feeling!
Day 3
Energised and happy. Able to have self control and stick to detox, self denial is a difficult lesson for a Taurean!
Day 12
Still quite “giggly”, teenage feeling.
Day 13
Tired but energy improved as day progressed (unusual) Went to party, laughed the entire evening, life and soul of event.
Day 15
Nothing out of the ordinary, quite calm and straight forward.
Day 16
Not particularly hungry, (unusual). On and off giggly, ongoing teenage feeling!
Day 17
Feelings; normal, still with a tendency to find things amusing.

Prover 7
Day 12
Midday-Felt good. Didn’t get to eat lunch. 3pm-Surprising I’m not hungry! Unusual.

PREGNANCY/FERTILITY/SEXUALITY



Prover 6
Wed 18th Jan. More determined. Decided to fall pregnant this year- excited/afraid.
Day 9
Profuse leucorrhea. Burning inside vagina.
Day 11
I haven’t mentioned it yet as I consider it quite normal that I don’t feel the need to be too close to my husband at the moment as I just don’t have the energy-I kiss and hug him, but that’s all- I don’t even think about sex.

Prover 1
Day 5
Quite sexually charged. Dream: rejected by long-term partner, devastated.
Day 6
Sexually charged.

Prover 2
Day 4
My meditation today also made me remember that I had a funny sensation in my womb the other day. It was a nice feeling, but puzzling, sort of quivering……I do feel life-change in there, not in terms of being pregnant-can’t be since I just had a full on period…It’s just that I can really feel things happening in there, as if its sensitive…………..I wonder if I could become self fertilising……….Death/Rebirth-REGENERATION.
Day 5
Lunchtime
Can feel movement in my womb. Went for a walk and there was a stream my boyfriend and I crossed. The water was bubbling over the stones and then got deeper and poured under the bridge. It was very very beautiful. And the waters were gentle, warm and nurturing. Their very gentle rippling felt energetically like the energy flow in my womb. Sort of still, peaceful and yet moving in a steady flow. There was a tree also that overstretched the water. It was magical and lifegiving. I felt that river in my womb.
Day 7
Have awoken from a nightmare. I had been putting silver thoughts into a cooking dish, like a cauldron, that my ex-boyfriend was cooking. These were the strands of my creativity, stories that I was giving, as proof of my fidelity I think. Then I was in the back garden and I was seeing why my fidelity was against my integrity- I knew that something was going to happen. People dressed in old celtic english dress. I heard a child cry ‘mummy’ and I felt a physical whoosh over and within my womb, as if something was leaving the story but it was just the nature of this contact. I knew that the child was going to die. Something very sinister- I think murdered by the man I had given everything to. I have shivers running down me writing this and am positively spooked…………….
Before this in the dream….I was passing a guy with a girl and I knew him, he had said something to me something –about having sex, but it was in a language that spoke of sexual truth, about the penis entering the womb. I wasn’t sexually explicit but more something everyday. I was happy and serene about it. It was truth about love.
Then it was I met my ex-boyfriend who was then my partner in the dream. He was moaning that I wasn’t committed to him, because he knew of the conversation I’d had with the young boy, which I’d had with other boys/men. It meant that I might go off with them. He asked me to think about it, and committing myself to him. I did, and that is where I gathered the silver threads of my stories from the crown of my head, weaved them into the cooking pot. I knew as soon as I heard that child a little boy, 6 0r 7 call ‘mummy’ – a cry for help-that I had reason not to have committed myself, because there was something in the man that was evil. That child was going to die-and I remember the river that I stood by two days ago feeling how it connected to my womb, and a tree- and I am positively spooked.
I wondered a few days ago if this remedy was to help one get pregnant, because of the movement and life I have felt in it, and also now if it is to do with fidelity and commitment. I am also curious about the silver threads-each a different colour that went into the cooking pot that my ex was stirring. My creativity, and my womb, being stirred by a man. Just that he wasn’t OK and I had been right not to commit because he was to murder our little boy. Perhaps the remedy is for integrity. The whooshing, like a wind, over my womb which woke me up, does feel very pronounced. As if the story were being taken away. Phew! Horrid, horrid dream.
And I thought earlier in the week that it would be a remedy good for one who has had miscarriage before.
Day 9
I sang in my Atlantean way that I often do, singing the deep feelings. The images I got was of a baby - and the deep wrenching choking being sick grief was of the baby dying. Dead. I had a few of these, and then I felt that the baby I saw was to be alive and this deeply touched me to tears in another way. I saw that the cauldron, my womb, the holy grail, and the light within the cup, Christ, was Life: In this a baby, is new life. And I felt in my body, understood, the need for human touch. I can be as spiritual as I can and resolve things alone in this way, but there is a need, and instinct, for human touch - we are after all human's together. And touch is infinite and sacred. (social her instinct)
I also saw that new life -from a perspective of the beginning of time-is fundamental to the existence of life on this planet. It thrives on it. I felt for the first time what it must be like to grow an entirely new human being, life, within my womb, and give birth to it, and see that new life that came from me in existence. Its amazing, a miracle and so important-more fundamental than anything. It was quite beautiful to see and feel this morning (sexual instinct has awakened) self preservation.
I do feel still now. I am aware that the last two days have been quite high and turbulent recently. I know that when I was high and in love I wanted a baby deeply.
Day 12
And I have a pronounced emptiness inside me, inside the skin and bones and organs of my body that I am not pregnant, as if the only thing that mattered in the world was to create new life, as a momentous and catalytic essential thing. This complete desire is at odds with my rational mind and sense of the reality of my life.

Prover 3
Day 11
Dreamt of a strange operation that a woman or I had while pregnant to lift the womb or pelvic floor or some such!

Prover 7
Day 10
6.30am-Dreamt of my sister-in-law + mother-in-law. My sister-in-law had an operation on top of her head the shape of a key; she was crying over the loss of her baby 6 years ago.

Prover 8
Day 3
Bled today thought it was beginning of my period but turned out to be a very unusual bleed as I’ve never experienced a full on big blood spot before without a period to follow.
Day 5
Had a very erotic dream it woke me up during the night giving me an ‘orgasm’!!
I’ve never experienced this ever. My libido has almost disappeared over the last 6 months so when this woke me up it made me laugh.
Dream- Was at an Egyptian Pyramid almost like an Indiana Jones type of film set. I was a heroine figure and the male in this dream was someone I’ve admired from afar for a long time. (I’ve never dreamed about someone that I fancy before)
We were running away from snakes and the ancient ruins we were climbing were collapsing all around us, I saved him from falling throughout this dream. Whenever he was making advances towards me I was reminding him that he wasn’t a free agent. Finally I succumbed and whilst in an embrace he entered inside of me and this is the point that I woke up with a smile on my face!
Day 10
Having lots of dreams of sexual nature. Todays:
Lots of symbols can’t remember names of many of them: pentagram, witch’s knot, weaving of thin thread almost like a spider’s web. The male who was Richard Harris, the character of ‘A man called Horse’. Trying to make me conceive by winding the thread in a four pointed star almost like a pentagram incorporating all elements but wanting to leave out one-cannot remember which one. This spiritual male who was intimidating me but I wasn’t frightened, woke up feeling very turned on.

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